I hate to admit it, but I am not in the Christmas spirit this year. Despite having a 2 year old totally excited about everything, all I can think about is the missing spot at the table this year and how much I miss my grandmother. Tuesday, while out shopping with my aunt, I was thinking of my grandmother and suddenly remembered the $40+ credit in my wallet that my grandmother left me. About once a month, before Mama got feeble, we would go to the Used Book Store (UBS) and we would both get a basketful of books; romances for her and whatever I found for me. It’s one of the things I have been missing the most the last 2 months, those trips. So I decided to go to the UBS and use some of it and get a little book therapy. I got:
Red Poppies: A Novel of Tibet by Alai
The Madam by Julianna Baggott
The Loved One by Evelyn Waugh
Confessions of an Ugly Stepsister by Gregory Maguire
The Conquest: A Novel by Yxta Maya Murray
and a couple little books for Ellie. I think I got some good ones. And a little bit of time with my Mama.
I love evelyn waugh!!! I'm going back to the bookstore next week for yummy sale finds!
I know how hard it is to be in the Christmas spirit when you're missing a family member. I'll be thinkin' about you.
Looks like you got some good stuff! I've only read Confessions of an Ugly Stepsister, but the others sound yummy, too!
I feel very guilty if a single day goes by that I don't think about my grammy. It's been a few years since her passing. Near the end of her life I moved in with her. She needed me there at night. The first night she used a small bell to wake me in the night if she needed me. After that all she had to do was say my name even at a whisper and I was up immediately. Once in awhile now I hear her say my name and I'm up.
I'm sure they are both smiling down at us.
Happy Christmas and Merry New Year!
Heather, you are a template schizo! Everytime I come here there's something new happening.
You're like the Whitney Houston of blogging. Yip!
Heather, I had a similar experience with a credit and my missing nana. It was bittersweet.
I know how much you miss her. You just have to feel it. That sounds corny, but I've learned this year that it's true. There's nothing else you can do.
xo
{{HUGS}} Heather. I know how hard it is to spend the holiday without a Grandparent you were close to. My grandpa passed away 5 years ago, but I still miss him terribly.
( We used to go to their place at Christmas and sit by the fireplace while the family visited. My grandma had to move out of that house after grandpa's passing (too big for her alone), and so Christmases have never been the same.
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Grandma mentioned at our gathering this year about how she knew Grandpa would've loved to be there, and I almost bawled.
Praying for comfort for you, and sending warm thoughts and hugs your way.
Thanks Jenn. I need all the prayers I can get.
Jonathan, thank you for sharing about your grandmother. Mine raised me, as my father died when I was small, and she meant the world to me. My biggest fear is that she didn't realize just how much she meant to me. I'm sure they are looking down and are, I hope, proud of us.
Dena, I'm am the Whitney but without the coke habit and the nasty hubby! Woo hoo!
And I am definitely feeling it. Everyday.