Most Wonderful Time of the Year?
December 17, 2008
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Posted by Heather
Sweet, eh?
Today was one of those days where I felt very much the Grinch. Or Scrooge. No, that’s not true. I don’t begrudge anyone their holiday cheer, nor do I want to cheat them out of their last farthing. But I definitely feel a sincere lack of the usual excitement that comes with this magnificent holiday. One would think I’d be feeling it a little more. I have a 5-year-old who is beside herself with excitement. A 15-month-old who is terrified of Santa and screams whenever he sees him yet is still entranced by the displays of Christmas lights, presents, and trees. Dozens of beautiful Christmas cards with their depictions of Santa, Christ, and general Christmas cheer have flooded into our house and I have sent an equal share back out again.
So what gives?
Well, one, this time of year, more than any other, I miss my grandparents. (In case you didn’t know, they raised me, so I might as well say, my parents.) They were never ones for big displays at Christmas, but still, I keenly feel their loss right now. It’s so hard to believe my Papa has been gone almost 7 years and my Mama just barely 3.
How to cheer up then?
Well, for starters I am very, very, very much looking forward to having next week OFF work! Monday will be spent wrapping all the presents and putting them under the tree. I’ll even help out Santa and wrap his presents too! And I’m going to watch lots of Veronica Mars, which I recently discovered thanks to Netflix and am now totally addicted to. Which really sucks, since it was cancelled and all. And I’m going to knit some more presents. Tuesday will probably be my annual shopping trip with my uncle (another father figure). Wednesday, I will cook. And then Thursday and Friday will be devoted to family and presents and foooooood. And of course I’ll try to fit in a few more good books before the end of the year. So I’ll get straigtened out.
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Categories: Miscellaneous
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Tags: Christmas, sad
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I am pretty un-Christmas-like this year, too, but for a totally different reason! Losing my job was sort of a downer and I haven’t been able to find another one, so I have been pretty depressed lately! It sucks because normally I love this time of the year… I miss my grandparents too. When they died my family stopped getting together at the holidays (because they don’t get along), so we don’t really have Christmas traditions anymore. Okay, enough whining! I was just feel a bit blah tonight and then I read your post…. Bad timing, I think!
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It sounds like you’re well on your way to some Christmas cheer my dear. But I totally understand. I was just thinking the other day–I can’t believe it’s been SIX YEARS since I lost my grandparents. I still get teary if I think about it for too long. Enjoy that time off!!! You’ll get your holiday mojo back.
And “farthing” is a totally underutilized word. We should bring it back in a big way!
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Your blog looks great!
Those babies are so beautiful.
OMG… it just started snowing on my screen.. how fun!
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I threw a big hissy fit yesterday about just not “feeling” Christmas this year. My husband listened to me patiently, and then went out and promptly bought a Christmas tree. I had told him “why bother!” because of the stress of it with the 15mo. I guess my husband’s position is we “bother” because we must. It’s stinkin’ Christmas, after all! I’ve been feeling much more in the spirit today, and like you, am really looking forward to next week with the kids home. Here’s hoping we all get our holiday mojo back in time to make a great time of it!
stacey @ book:thirty
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Yeah, it seems like a lot of us have been lacking that holiday spirit. Hope you find it in time. Cute photo!
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(((Kailana))) I hope you are feeling better today!!
Andi, I knew you would understand. I’m teary now just thinking of mine. It doesn’t take long.
And I totally agree. Farthing is going on my favorite word list. I just love saying it!
Thank you Sheri! And thank you again! I just love how they added snow on here!
Thanks Michelle! I hope you find some too!
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I’ve been feeling the same way this year. The first year or two after losing Rachel, I felt I should make an effort to at least try to have a normal Christmas. HA! Who was a fooling? It just isn’t the same and it’s one holiday I’d rather skip, which is a shame since it used to be my favorite. I’m sure I’ll get in the mood one of these years, but for now, I’m not going to beat myself up about not feeling festive. I did very minimal decorating (no tree) and I’m keeping busy with work (we’ve been swamped for days and days!).
I send you warm thoughts and virtual hugs, as I know what you’re feeling. I truly do. This is the time of year we miss them the most, isn’t it? Enjoy your babes and be good to yourself.
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I forgot to say that I love the photograph!! Great B&W! Gosh, they’re darling kiddos.
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Love, love, love the photo! And, I can relate. I’m okay as long as I don’t read about anyone else’s parents or grandparents. One post I read tonight nearly sent me over the edge. But, then I turned on the phone camera and started panning with candy canes. Ha. Nothing like a little goofiness to make you feel better. ((((hugs))))
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